Posted on Oct 13th, 2009
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There have been many, and as I conflate the capacity for the love of truth and my inherent fallibility I begin to see through my failed expectations. I can only sit and wonder how the parlay has fallen and given way to a transformative inner struggle of loosening my stubborn rigid thinking.
I remember a couple months ago when I first met this horse named Echo I did not think that a scruffy old animal with Addison's disease would be much for riding. As we cleaned him up, picked his hoofs, and messaged his neck I began to see renewed life come through. We got the saddles ready. One was a western saddle and the other was one specially made for Jackelyn. It has a special back plate to hold up her spine and rigid body. She has cerebral palsy and it seems so painful for her to be on Echo but her Dad keeps bringing her back for her weekly ride. Even though Jackelyn doesn't speak much there must be some inner appreciation of being up on that animal with her father and I by her side.
I am reminded of the quote, "we are the echos of the future" and how repeated tolerance of fear and hurt brings ripples of compassion. It's natural for us to have pain and to learn how to become loose with our own suffering and the suffering of others. And what a blessing it becomes when caring people lend a little support for one another.
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Posted on Sep 24th, 2009
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Jordan
This is similar to considering the question, does form follow function or does function follow form? Both are part of the paradoxical nature of the self-realization process where the home or the body becomes the primary vehicle for gaining awareness. The somatic body and the conduit of the spine become a emotional subsystem that flows so elegantly from the cortical, pineal, pituitary, limbic, brain stem, meningeal channel, providing the whole physiological, psychic, spiritual interplay of our energy field mandala expression.
After many years of doing mindfulness practice on the physical body I find so much is stored there to be remembered and transcended. So many things move through my field of experience with the simple unfolding of the recognition of the seamless cognition of my minds eye, embodied. There becomes shifts, adaptation, growth, learning over time. Anais Nin says, "If one changes internally, one should not continue to live with the same objects. They reflect one's mind and psyche of yesterday. I throw away what has no dynamic, living use. I keep nothing to remind me of the passage of time, deterioration, loss, shriveling."
A shift in perspective is here for us at this very moment but some of us don't even realize that we are stuck or why? We truly are stuck and we want out of the polarities and rhythms. And so begins the stages of healing to where hopefully we may one day experience ascension, decension and the vast interconnection of a loving community and Kosmos.
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Posted on Sep 16th, 2009
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I seem to slip into contemplative thought often because the mind becomes so curious with reflective consideration. And I marvel at the time between thoughts when the clear awareness glows from my very nature. It seems so very normal to me to slow down every once in awhile through out my day and open up to a broader view of things.
Like how did my loving friend pop in my mind just before she called? Its like W.S. Merwin said, "We are the echo of the future."
I value exploring the mystery of form beyond words and I am at awe with Noesis, where pure awareness yields to the arising of consciousness. Some interesting echos of miraculous collective intelligent imprints come though the mind cloud sometimes. Its as if I become immersed in wanderous serendipity, and the simple becomes natural fulfillment.
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Posted on Sep 11th, 2009
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Forgiveness has been difficult for me because it usually means working with the reconciliation of a fault or perceived flaw by making up an excuse for a particular action that I find bothersome. And really, what becomes my thoughts and projections by excusing anyway? I prefer using acceptance over forgiveness which seems to move me more toward the truth of my awareness of situations. With acceptance the foundation of trust comes through as a posed to rejection, and I can begin to step into the sempiternal stream of deep compassionate understanding.
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